Life right now

So there is a lot of new and still some old. Life has changed so much since I last posted. I still work at Focus. Now I work for saveology instead of BOA though. I like the change. Saveology is so much more active then BOA was. I have met a lot of new people there. I also made the #1 position so I am now an assistant coach. I love it. Anyways. I can't really post much today. Have a friend coming over. I actually hangout now. It's not all the old people that I used to see. I love my old friends. Don't get me wrong no one could replace the people in my life. Nico, Donna, there are really too many to name. I can't just replace you. Ever. You will always be the number one people in my life. I need to get out and meet the new too though. If I stay stuck in the life of the few I have I will go nuts. So this is me moving on. Not moving away. No worries on that. Nico I will still visit you in Evanston. Donna I WILL be there in the maid of honor dress to lead you on into married life. I am so happy for you and Ryan. You have found what you deserve. That is the best thing I could ever wish for you. Anyways. I am signing off now. I promise to post more often.......Always, Me

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So I entered Brycen into this Parenting magazine contest. Thinkin everyone should vote for him. Lets face it he looks SOOOO freaking cute with that on his head. Lol.

The End of That Chapter

Well the end of a chapter of my life is officially here. I am single. Its a long story. The only thing I really have to say is you NEVER really know someone. The people you think you know and love are NEVER really what they seem. People lie. They cheat. People set out on a course to hurt others and just never get back off that course. I have been hurt. I have been lied to. I have been cheated on. I am tired of it. I am tired of the decite. I am tired of looking over my shoulder and hoping that things will be different. They never will though. People are fake and people are stupid. Its really that simple.

Life is hard

Life is hard. There are all these choices and chances you have to decide on. There are heartaches and head breaks. There is anger and hate. There is a lot of good to though. Sometimes I know its hard to focus on the good. The bad seems to be all that anyone ever pays attention to. I hate not knowing which road in life to take. Should I move out? Should I break up and move on? Things like that are often the last thing I care to think about. You have to though. There comes a time in every ones life when you have to take a step back and decide. The decision is often the last thing you want to make but its necessary. You have to strive on doing things that will make you happy. If you only live to make others happy then you often neglect yourself. Yes some people find great and true happiness in making others happy and that is totally fine. If your not one of those people though. Should you really sit and try? No one can make everyone around them happy. Its futile to try. You can make your family happy but that will often make your friends not happy and vise Vera. its all so confusing at times. So I stand at this. If you want to be happy and your not. Take steps to fix it. You only live once. You deserve to live your life how you chose to. You deserve to live your life happy and full. So do what you do. Live how you live. Just be happy while you do it.

The new and the kinds old.

So this is my life as it stands. My oldest child Tristan just turned three on March 7th. He has grown so much. He blew his own candle out this time. He jumps and talks. Giggles and plays. Beats up on his sister and yells no. Typical three year old. I love it though. Yeah it has its rough times but its amazing. My middle child Loerya will be two May 5th. She talks now too. She tries to jump but it doesn't always work. Yeah Tristan beats her up but she beats him up too. She is my lil temper tantrum thrower. She is always freaking out when we tell her no. Brycen is my youngest. He was only born Dec 2, 2009. He is eating baby food now. Not just bottles anymore. He giggles and smiles now too. He can hold his own head up now. Its kinda wobbly when he does it but its up still. I love me kids. They are the light in my life. Mason and I are together again. We have our rough times. Have had them before. Yet still we stick by each other. I don't know what the future holds for us but I know what I want it to hold. I wont lose faith but I wont lose myself in this either. I found a job. Yeah it took forever but I found one. I work at Focus in Roy. I have ALWAYS hated telemarketers but that's what I am now. Its an ok job. Kinda sucks but well it's a paycheck. Does it make me hate telemarketers any less....NO. Oh well anyways, that's my life right now. Take it or leave it right!

Night out

Went to Evanston last night. Spent the night with Mason and Trit. Im not gonna go into my emotions on that one cuz well its a long story and i'm tired of caring too much. The night was fun and interesting. Slept in a WAY too comfy bed cuddled up with Mason. Died of overheat cuz of it but oh well. Woke up early went to H&R Block. Filed taxes, Went to his moms grabbed stuff. Left and came home. Spent the day tired and really unsure of some stuff. Its all so complicated. Life is complicated. I feel bad cuz I upset a friend. Didnt mean to just too tired to move and he wanted to hangout. I hate disappointing people. Sometimes it cant be helped though. Why cant life just be SOOO much simpler? Now im off to sleep. That is if I can make my stomache stop hurting so dang much. Oh well Ibuprofen and the light off should do it. So goodnight my friends ill update soon!

Happy Birthday Miss Serenity, YAY for NANA's who give you a free day!

So my niece turned two today! YAY. I love my family. Its HUGE. Its GREAT. Most of my family live here in UT. I have some in WA and then some other places. You cant forget those friends that I concider family too. Donna I LOVE YOU. Anyways, Today was nice. I woke up to Mason telling me my mom was stealing the kids for the day. She woke up at 330 and decided that she wanted to have a Nana day. So that left Mason and I to just take a day to do well whatever we wanted to do. We went to Home Depot at 1 to have lunch with my dad. My mom sis and the kids came too. Then we all parted ways and just did our thing. Mason and I just drove around and talked. Alot of things were said alot was finally put out in the open. Its all still rough. Theres alot that im not sure about and alot that scares me still. I dont know how the future will work out and well I dont know if I care anymore. That might be sad but its true. There is no point worrying bout the past and the future. Live in the now. So yeah, We met up with my mom and Grandma and the kids at Wal Mart. Changed Brycen when I got there. Sang happy Birthday to Serenity over the phone. Then My mom took the two older kids into the bathroom to change them and Mason and I helped my grandma get Brycen and the stuff in the car. Did that headed back in to help finish with the kids. Went inside and Mason went to go to the restroom. I went in the womens room and couldnt find my mom so I called her to see where she was. She said in the bathroom. Then all a sudden all I hear from her side of the phone is Mason laughing telling her yeah shes in the mens room. My mom had did the ultimate oops and went into the wrong room. Whats sad is no one noticed really. Men went in and out and it was all normal looking. That is until my mom pipes up saying " If there are any other men in here besides my son in law I am SOOOOO sorry" then she came out of the bathroom beat red looking teary from embarassment. It was GREAT. Its one of those things we wont EVER let her live down. Went to Sonic after that and talked to Grandma (emily-a manager there). Then drove home played with the kids some and got kicked out by my mom again lol. So spent an hourish walking around the mall. So that was my day. Uneventful but at the same time really eventful. I know this blog was kinda boring but hey I wanted to type and this is all I got to talk about right now. So im done for now. Ill post again soon. Thanks to those who have already chose to follow my blog and thanks in advance to the once that decide later on to follow. Night!